Category Archives: Solitude

Changing Stories

The journey feels long and never-ending.

May I remember that even when things feel the same, when each day just feels like the day before, or like an even bigger struggle… Even when I cannot sense that there is anything happening…

Change is always there.

And that is why it won’t always be like that.

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The Logic of Self-Care

I used to think that self-care was some sort of insurance or guarantee.

As long as I practice my self-care routines, set my boundaries, have enough time for my solitude and recharge, I will be fine. I will have problems and life will be shitty from time to time, BUT I will still be be able to go to work daily, make a living doing what I enjoy, while cultivating quality relationships with people important to me – AS LONG AS I PRACTICE SELF-CARE.

The equation has somewhat shifted.

I realise self-care is not something you do in order to prevent upheavals from happening to you.

Self-care is what you fall back on when the upheaval happens.

And I am thankful for the self-care routines and habits I had formed before to fall back on over the past few months – Habits, relationships, activities I do.

And now I am learning that I can try to do more to improve what I already have, so that I can grow in resilience and strength.

Ink Mountain

I sat in front of the images and looked at them for a long time.

Long enough for the kind curator to cautiously approach me and say: “These are abstract images.”

Perhaps she thought I was trying too hard to make sense of them.

And I was… I was trying to make my own meaning out of what I saw.

As we often try to do in life.