All posts by kyohinaa

The Day We Went To The Cat Cafe

When I look at these pictures I am reminded that we live in a world with sometimes-difficult emotions, beautiful people, and cats.

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Expectations

Learning how to let go of expectations – trickier than I thought!

“I cycled so much today – I should feel better.”

“I did my yoga and meditation this morning – it ought to make me feel more motivated.”

“I spent time with a friend last night – I should be feeling more connected.”

It took me a while before I even realised I was holding these invisible expectations in my thought patterns. And that they were bound to lead to some disappointment, sooner or later.

What to do?

Awareness and release.

I can see that I am holding certain expectations which may not serve me well.

May I let go of them, and take each moment as it comes.

Breathe.

Rest

So for the first time in my life, I am actually not doing something fully.

For a month or so, at least, I am working… *gasp* part-time.

To be honest this was something that would never have come to me as a feasible idea.

Work part-time? And have… all that free time?! Apart from weekends?! And take home less pay than I already am making?!

But once I made the decision, it felt so right, so why-didn’t-I-do-this-earlier.

“Finally!” I could hear my body saying. “I’ve been trying to tell you for so long!”

OK, buddy. I’m listening to you now.

 

On the first weekday I did not have to go to work, I found the time and motivation to finish an online course I had been putting off. I enjoyed a slow leisurely lunch with the brother. I went cycling and soaked in some Vitamin D and produced some endorphins. The exercise was so beneficial that I felt motivated for the first time in 2 months to compose new musical ideas for sessions! Then I cried and used it as a wonderful opportunity to practice self-compassion.

 

I have no idea what will happen from here.

But let’s see where this journey is going 🙂