I’ve noticed that I tend to do this quite a bit. Ruminating about things that make me unhappy, an act that does absolutely nothing to improve my present moment or future.
Things like.. The mistakes I made as a beginning teacher. The ways I handled certain conflicts and relationships in the past. The feelings of being redundant, not useful, or not performing up to my capabilities.
Upon deeper scrutinisation, I realise that many of these things either are baseless, or are things that have already passed and hence cannot be altered.
So why do I ruminate?
May this awareness lead me to stop this bad habit, and fully focus on the riches of each present moment, which are many!